Part 3: Chapter VI

I love Big Brother. I knew he would make Oceania win the war against Eurasia. Julia and I have both betrayed each other. We are both different and agreed we do not feel the same way about each other any more. Finally it happened in The Ministry of Love, I was shot in the back of the head just like I had been anticipating since I began my journal.

Part 3: Chapter V

Room 101 is a terrible place. It is where everyone is tortured with their worst fear. For me it was the rats. They were so close! I begged for them to eat Julia instead of me.

Part 3: Chapter IV

They treat me well. I get food, clothes, and bathes with warm water! I even have time to exercise and think. I hate Big Brother and now it is time for me to go to Room 101.

Part 3: Chapter III

O’Brien says I will be shot in the end. He has contradicted my beliefs and everything I know. I believe I am done with the understanding stage of my reintegration.

Part 3: Chapter II

I have been trying to hold out as long as I can but torture is a word which means so much more when it has been experienced. O’Brien truly is and believes in the Inner Party yet there are still times when I do not hate him. He says that there is no way for me to escape. My mind will be cured before I am killed.

Part 3: Chapter I

I have been waiting in a white room. I’ve seen many people come and go including O’Brien! He did say we would meet in the place where there is no darkness. And now all I can do I wait for room 101. I am starting to question weather I would risk my life for anyone, even Julia.

Part 2: Chapter X

I noticed how beautiful the prole woman is but then the Thought Police came. Mr. Charrington is a Thought Police! Out of all people, I actually trusted him. I was stupid and both Julia and I will pay. They beat her and took her away, for me to never see again.

Part 2: Chapter IX

I read chapters one and two of The Book. Finally after six days I have gotten the chance to read it. I have not learned anything new. Goldstein has simply put into words what has been in my mind for so long. He has explained how Big Brother does what he does but ii still don’t know why. I know I am not crazy or alone.

Part 2: Chapter VIII

I went to O’Brien’s house. I will be an official member of the Brotherhood as soon as I read The Book. I was right about everything and now I have committed to do anything for the Brotherhood. Anything except be away from Julia.

Part 2: Chapter VII

After I woke from my dream I instantly remembered my mother and sister. I remember as a child I was always hungry no matter how much food I demanded my mother to give me. I took all the chocolate and never saw my mother or sister again. I realize the proles are different than the Party members because unlike us they are human. They care about one another and have emotions.

Part 2: Chapter VI

Today O’Brien gave me his address so I can pick up the tenth edition of Newspeak dictionary. I know the only reason he gave me his address is so we can talk. I know the conspiracy exists.

Part 2: Chapter V

Syme vanished. He never existed according to Big Brother but I remember him. Julia doesn’t care that Big Brother changes the past. It is hard to care and wonder if anyone else remembers the things I do.

Part 2: Chapter IV

Julia and I rent the room in the junk shop. It’s our bubble of the world just like the paper weight is a bubble around the coral. Last night she taught me more of the church song. She said her grandfather knew it.

Part 2: Chapter III

Julia and I love each other dearly. I thought I lost her once but to my relief we were both fine. I regret my marriage to Katherine and wish I could be with Julia for the rest of my life. That is simply out of the question.

Part 2: Chapter II

On Sunday my dreams came true. I know Julia is a liar. We met in an opening far away from where I live. I learned she is skilled at masking her true personality. She is like me. Most importantly, I know what it’s like to love her.

*Part 2: Chapter I on the side under Pages*

Part 1

The monotonous days are making me lose hope. I am getting older and am not healthy. I have started a journal even though it means I will get vaporized. I dose not really matter if I write it down or not because the thought police will catch me either way.
I like the dark haired for her youth and appeal but my feelings of hate are stronger. I want to kill her. She is a member of the Jr. Anti Sex league and must be a spy because she follows me around. I could not despise her more.
The government lies all the time, but for what purpose? And why do I write their lies for them? What are they trying to hide and from who exactly? If anyone can do something about Big Brother it will be the proles. I shall go back and visit them more often.